Sunday, January 7, 2018

Sunday sermon by Hugh B Brown

Father, Are You There?
by President Brown of the First Presidency in 1967

My dear fellow workers, this is at once a frightening and an inspiring situation to be in, standing before what is estimated to be about 12,000 students. It is also humbling; it makes one realize how dependent he is on divine guidance.

CASES OF SLIGHT MISUNDERSTANDING
I have appreciated very much the singing of this wonderful chorus. It is amazing to me as I travel around the Church to see how many fine choruses we have in all parts of the Church—and I have been in almost all of the stakes. But I think nothing finer can be or has been given than these numbers tonight by this chorus.
Of course I don’t profess to be much of a judge of music. I fear I may be a little like a couple of fellows who were sitting in the bandstand. As the band was playing, each wanted to impress the other with his knowledge of music.
One said, “Do you know what the band’s playing?”
The other answered, “Why, yes, that’s Tannhäuser.
“No, it isn’t. It’s the second movement of Chopin.”
The other man said, “Well, I’ll go down and find out.” He went down toward the bandstand and came back shortly. He said, “No, we’re both wrong. That was the ‘Refrain from Spitting.’ I saw it on the sign out there.”
There is only one justification for telling a story like that on an occasion like this, and that is that the speaker needs a little tranquilizer, and to have you respond by laughter helps one to get his bearings.

I was amused at a recent dinner that was given by someone in the Hotel Utah. One of the General Authorities was telling how, while he was visiting one of the stakes, he had stayed at the home of the stake president, who had a large family. In that family, as in many Latter-day Saint families, they had the habit of taking turns in offering the evening prayer. On this particular occasion a young girl, three years old, was praying. She prayed for the bishop, the stake president, the General Authorities, and President David O. McKay, who “stands on his head in the Church.”
How easily we can be misled when someone tells us something that we don’t quite understand. I do not intend to attempt to give an oration tonight. I would like merely to talk about this and that with you, as it is a fireside. I would like to be free to depart from any text that my introductory remarks might indicate and just talk about various things as they come to mind.

WIDENING HORIZONS

As we approach life, as students we of course feel humble. At times we indicate that we are not very humble, but I am sure, as a general rule, that the young people of the Church are humble—humble in the sense that they seek divine guidance. I know they try to live so as to warrant answers to their prayers.
I am thinking now in terms of what we were—some of us nearly a hundred years ago and others of us barely eighteen or twenty years ago—that all of us at one time were little children. We came into this world rather helpless; the encircling arms of our mothers were the only protection we had, and the only thing we knew was their love. A little later our mothers put us in a crib and there, too, precautions were taken against any accident that might occur to us. We were protected and guarded. A little later we were out of the crib and into the room, crawling on the floor, Mother ever near to protect us. And then we found that there were other rooms in the house, and we did a little exploring, sometimes to the annoyance of our mothers. But later on we were permitted to go out in the yard, and there, too, were hedges and fences to restrict, restrain, and protect us.
Then, later, we learned to read and to write. Someone helped us across the road. We went to church and to school. And from there we found that there were other towns than our own. We went to larger cities on visits, and from there, perhaps, across the ocean to foreign countries. Perhaps some of us might have had an opportunity to fly. Some of you may have an opportunity to get into outer space.
Your conduct so far has been measured very largely by a process of pushing back your horizons, making inquiries, investigating, wondering, learning, and studying. That has been the process.

LIFE IS A JOURNEY

Life is very much like a journey. Those of you who live in Provo or those of you who are visiting here have undoubtedly at some time or other wanted to go to either New York or San Francisco in a car. Perchance you are offered a big reward if you arrived there at a given time, and with high ambition you start on the journey. First you take the occasion to seek out someone who has been over the road. You take advice from those who know the way. You study road maps and familiarize yourselves with what may perhaps lie ahead. In other words, you prepare for the journey. On the journey you find that there are road signs; there are flashing signs indicating danger or soft shoulders. Sometimes there is a road out of repair or a bridge out. And you heed those warning signs. We hope you do. And if you do not, you will find that there are rules and regulations all the way through life with warning signs to help you avoid danger.

A PLAN FOUNDED ON LAW

I am wondering if you folks, you young men and women who are here tonight, are aware of the fact that a plan was laid out for you before you came here—a plan devised by the greatest of all beings, your Heavenly Father, a plan that had in mind your development and growth. That plan is founded on law. Observance to law must become a rule in your life. Any rebellion against law is evidence of weakness. Any observance of law—willing observance—is evidence of a willingness to be led and guided and protected, as we were as little children.
If you start from here to New York in a car, you might have some trouble in Denver. Perhaps there is a blowout. Other dangerous things might happen, and you may wonder whether you are going to make it. You might get discouraged and give up, quit the road, and come back home. If you do, you are foolish, because there is a reward waiting at the other end. What you really should do is make amends and repairs, buy extra parts, learn something about the car you are driving, and then carry on.
In this battle of life, the car in which you travel is your own body, and you should learn all you can about it and then keep it in good order. You will find that there are very definite rules and regulations governing human conduct. In all of our experiences in life, we constantly need the protective influences of those who love us. I said a moment ago that our mothers were guarding us and protecting us, guiding us and helping us across the road. But gradually this parental care and concern is withdrawn measurably, and we are given more freedom to do as we will. We go from place to place with considerable freedom, and yet we are always aware of the fact that our freedom is limited by our conduct. Obedience to law is liberty, and we learn that as we go forward.
On this journey of life you are not headed for New York or San Francisco; you are headed for immortality, eternal life, and eternal increase. When I mention eternal increase, I am referring not only to increase of posterity but to increase of knowledge and the power that comes with knowledge when it is set on fire. I am referring to the increase of wisdom, which is a proper use of knowledge, and to the increase of intelligence, which is the glory of God and will be the glory of man.

SELF-DISCIPLINE

I think every young person should decide rather early in life where he wants to go, what he wants to be, and what he is willing to pay to achieve his ends. In paying there is involved some self-sacrifice and a lot of self-discipline. If young men or young women lose control of himself or herself in the folly of association with others and if they lose the discipline that keeps them on the track, they are liable to lose all. I would mention, then, that one of the definite controlling factors of all life is self-discipline—that which a man uses when he is tempted by someone or something to do something or say something that he knows he ought not to do or say. When he gets the courage and the stamina to say no and mean it, then he can take charge of his life and go forward.
I think it very important that we understand the meaning of self-discipline. In the army I learned a little about discipline—not very much, but a little. I learned enough to know that if I were told to do a thing, I had better do it, and a number of you have learned the same thing in the army. There are good things in the army as well as some things that are not so good, but discipline is one of the things that I appreciated in my military experiences.
Incidentally, the introduction indicated that I had been in many different activities at different times. I think that would indicate to most of you that I must be about 110 years old. I think I am very near that, but a little time is left, I think, for some of us.

GET ACQUAINTED WITH GOD

I think one of the first things that every young person should do is attempt to get acquainted with God—and I mean that in a very literal sense. I mean it in the sense that we are able to go to Him and obtain the kind of help that we need.
I remember when I was quite a lad (and that’s remembering a long way back) what my mother said to me when I went to go on my mission in 1904 (and that’s before some of you were born). She said, “My boy, you are going a long ways away from me now. Do you remember that when you were a little lad you used to have bad dreams and get frightened? Your bedroom was just off mine, and frequently you would cry out in the night and say, ‘Mother, are you there?’ And I would answer, ‘Yes, my boy, I’m here—everything is all right. Turn over and go to sleep.’ You always did. Knowing that I was there gave you courage.
“Now,” she said, “you will be about 6,000 miles away, and though you may cry out for me, I cannot answer you.” She added this: “There is one who can, and if you call to Him, He will hear you when you call. He will respond to your appeal. You just say, ‘Father, are you there?’ And there will come into your heart the comfort and solace such as you knew as a boy when I answered you.”
I want to say to you young people that many times since then, in many and varying conditions, I have cried out, “Father, are you there?” I made that plea in the mission field when we were mobbed almost every night, driven from place to place. We were beaten and expelled from cities; our lives were threatened. Every time before I went out to those meetings, I would say, “Father, are you there?” And though I didn’t hear a voice and though I didn’t see His person, I want to tell you young people that He replied to me with the comfort and assurance and testimony of His presence. It made me unafraid, and with that presence, I am grateful to say, we did not suffer much.
I think it important that we get acquainted with Him. I wonder if I should tell a story. Sometimes I have been accused of doing that. I can’t help it. I’m like a man having fits. When a man has fits he knows he is going to have one—he feels it coming on and he has it. When I feel a story coming on, the only possible thing for me to do is to tell it. This story has to do with an experience of my own.

AN AURA OF AWFUL BLACKNESS

It has been indicated that I was asked to come down from Canada at a time when I was drilling oil wells, a time when I thought I was almost a millionaire, a time when it looked like nothing could save me from becoming a millionaire. I didn’t want to be saved from the down-drag of money, but I had, at that time, a sort of feeling that I wanted to know whether it was right for me to pursue the course I was taking.
I awoke one morning at about three o’clock—mornings come early up there in the summertime. I was in a little cottage up in the Canadian Rockies. I was worried and bothered. I got out of my bed, dressed, and went up into the mountains, far back in the hills, remembering that the Savior often went to the mountains for His communications with His Father.
When I got up in the mountains on top of a peak, I was all alone. I removed my hat, and in a loud voice I said, “Oh, God, are you there? You know that I am about to be a millionaire, or I think I am. Father, if this is not to be good for me or my family, don’t allow it to happen. If it is going to rob my family of their faith, don’t allow it to happen.” I talked to Him as a man would talk to another man. I didn’t seem to get an answer. I stayed up there for some time.
I drove that evening back to Edmonton, and upon arriving I said to Sister Brown, “I think I’ll not want any supper tonight. I think I’ll go in the back bedroom and sleep. You had better stay in the other room, because I fear I am going to have a wakeful night.”
I went into that bedroom and closed the door, and I was conscious of a blackness such as I had never known. There was something in that room that made me feel very sincerely that I would like to be rubbed out—that I would like to cease to be. I didn’t think of suicide, but I did think seriously that if there were any way that I could be washed out, that would be the best thing that could happen to me.
I spent the night in that attitude, in that aura of awful blackness. Early in the morning Sister Brown came in—she had heard me walking the floor. When she closed the door, she said, “My goodness, my dear! What’s in this room?”
I said, “The devil is in this room, and he is trying to destroy me.”

DELIVERANCE AND PEACE

Together we knelt at the bedside and prayed for guidance and deliverance. We didn’t seem to get it. The next morning I went down to my office in the city. It was Saturday. I knew no one would be there, and I wanted to be alone. I knelt by my cot and pleaded to God for deliverance, for that awful blackness was still on my soul. And it seemed to me that the sun came up. I obtained peace of soul and serenity of spirit.
I phoned Sister Brown and told her, “Every­thing is all right. I don’t know what happened, but it’s all right.”

A CALL FROM THE PROPHET

That night I was taking a bath. The telephone rang. Sister Brown came to the door and said, “Salt Lake is calling.”
I said, “Who in the dickens wants to talk to me at this time of night?” It was 10:30. I went to the phone.
When I said hello I heard a voice that said, “This is David O. McKay calling.”
I said, “Yes, President McKay.”
“The Lord wants you to give the balance of your life to the Church. Tomorrow will be the closing session of conference. Can you get here in time for the afternoon session?”
I told him I couldn’t, as there were no planes flying. He said, “Come as soon as you can.”
You know, I didn’t think to ask him what there was in it. That’s what I would do in an ordinary business deal.
I hung up, and that night—this was the night following the night of blackness in our lives—Sister Brown and I spent another wakeful night, but it was a night of bliss. Not that we were looking for position, but to think that the God of heaven would reach out l,200 miles and touch a man on the shoulder and say, “Come,” and to think that I would be that man was almost more than I could understand!
I told the president when I came down thirty days later about this experience, and he said, “As far as I know, every man who is called into the General Authorities has to wrestle with the devil.” You have to have a lot of courage if you come out victorious.

THE APPROACHES OF THE ADVERSARY

Do I know God lives? Do I know the devil lives? I want to tell you young people that there is a constant war between the two, and the war is over you and your soul. The adversary would take you and destroy you if God would permit it. He has many devices, many means of attack, and many avenues of approach, and you must be on guard.
Young people throughout the world today, there is a situation unlike anything that has ever happened in the world, and the situation is affecting the young people of the world adversely. Many of the young people of the world and some young people on the university campuses are taking part in activities that are not only deplorable but degrading. I want to say to you young people of BYU, the eyes of the whole Church are upon you, expecting you to stand firm; to have faith, fortitude, and courage; and to keep yourselves absolutely clean from the center of your heart to the ends of your fingers and toes. That is a challenge I issue to you tonight. Beware of the approaches of the adversary, and know always that God stands ready to help. You can call on Him, and He will help.

MISTAKES, FORGIVENESS, REPENTANCE

Now, you are going to make some mistakes. You are going to do wrong things—all of you, all of us. But the Lord has been good enough to make provision for us so that we can be forgiven of our sins.
I thought I would like to read you just a word or two about forgiveness. You know, the devil is very cunning in his approach. When a boy or girl has done something wrong, he whispers in their ears, “Now you have committed an unpardonable sin; there’s no hope for you in the future.” And he tells them that they might as well go on sinning because they have taken the first step and there is no turning back.
I want to say to you, my young friends, that that is a lie from the champion of all liars. God wants you to be forgiven. He wants you to change your course. He wants you to call for help. And He stands ready and willing to help.
But if the wicked will turn from all his sins that he hath committed, and keep all my statutes, and do that which is lawful and right, he shall surely live, he shall not die.
All his transgressions that he hath committed, they shall not be mentioned unto him: in his righteousness that he hath done he shall live.
Have I any pleasure at all that the wicked should die? saith the Lord God: and not that he should return from his ways, and live? [Ezekiel 18:21–23]
I trust that every man and woman here tonight will take courage in the fact that God is real, and He is as close to you as you will let Him be.
The Lord said in the Doctrine and Covenants:
For I the Lord cannot look upon sin with the least degree of allowance;
Nevertheless, he that repents and does the commandments of the Lord shall be forgiven;
And he that repents not, from him shall be taken even the light which he has received; for my Spirit shall not always strive with man, saith the Lord of Hosts. [D&C 1:31–33]
I wanted to leave that word of encouragement, for every one of us needs to have that forgiveness. I pray that you may need it less and less as you go forward. I pray that we may be able, as young people and older ones, to so order our lives that we may keep in touch with the Master, keep in touch with the Shepherd, keep in touch with our Heavenly Father.
You know that palm trees do not grow from acorns—only oaks come from acorns. The reason is that somehow oaks are involved in acorns, and that which is involved can evolve. Now, young people, God is your Father—in a very real and genuine sense He is your Father—and therefore He is involved in you. If you will conduct yourselves properly, you may evolve into something like Him. But again I say, if we yield to the temptations to do what we ought not to do and continue to yield, then we will not develop and grow and unfold into our possibilities. That which is involved can evolve, and God is involved in you. I pray you resolve tonight that you are going to evolve into something like that from which you came.

KNOW THE SHEPHERD

I said it is a great thing to know the Shepherd. Some time ago a great actor in the city of New York gave a wonderful performance. There was thunderous applause at the end of the performance.
Some man in the audience thought he would like to hear this man read a scripture. He rose and said, “Sir, would you read for us the 23rd Psalm?”
Then the actor, being a great speaker as well as a great actor, said, “Why, yes, I know the words of the 23rd Psalm.” And as such a man would read, he did read that wonderful psalm. When he finished, again there was thunderous applause.
But the actor arose and signaled for silence and said, “I appreciate your response, but there is a man sitting down here whom I happen to know. He is an elderly man. I would like for your benefit to have him come and really read the 23rd Psalm.”
The old man, of course, was frightened, but he yielded to the invitation, staggered to the stand, and read as only such a man could read the 23rd Psalm. In quavering voice he said:
The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.
He sat down, and there was complete silence; many were wiping their eyes.
The great actor arose and said, “Ladies and gentlemen, as I told you, I know the words of the 23rd Psalm, but this man knows the Shepherd.”
Oh, what a difference!

WHAT KIND OF MAN ARE YOU?

I pray you get acquainted with Him. Be true to Him—and thereby true to your parents, who love you so much. Some of you are freshmen, and this is your first time away from home. There is not a day that passes without your parents connecting your name with the name of God. Remember that and be worthy of their trust. Be unaffected by an association you may have with those who have, as they say, become somewhat sophisticated. Be unafraid to be yourself and to be your better self.
I think it is a very good thing for every man to examine himself occasionally—to stand himself up against the wall and look himself over and say to himself, “You’re an elder (a high priest, a seventy, or whatever). What kind of man are you?” and then to answer. Remember, you are talking to yourself, and you can’t deceive the man you are talking to, nor can you deceive God. Examine yourself—your selfish self, your greedy self, your amorous self—and then try and find that inner self “that lighteth every man that cometh into the world” (D&C 93:2).
I pray that God will help us, that as we examine ourselves we may be unashamed and unafraid.

DRUGS AND THE ADVERSARY

There is one awful thing that is happening in this world of ours today, and I am indebted to Truman Madsen for what I would like to read, if I may, having to do with the use of drugs. Some may think it unnecessary to mention that here, and yet I happen to know that it is making its inroads. And as I said, the adversary is doing everything in his power to get control of the minds and hearts and souls of men, and he wants the young people because you are the future leaders of the Church and of the world. If he can defeat you, he has won a great victory.
Many years ago the great American psychologist William James—all of you students have heard of him—performed an experiment on himself. Lacking, as he believed, any solid religious experience, he set out to induce some artificially by taking nitrous oxide, known as laughing gas. He came to have a series of unusual fantasies. Later he wrote a book entitled The Varieties of Religious Experiences. James began and ended with a scientific curiosity. (May I add that there are 75,000 addicts in New York who every day must have their drugs and have provisions being made to meet their necessities.) The nitrous oxide that James used is comparatively harmless, but many of today’s drugs are lethal. James saw his trial as artificial and superficial but in no way beneficial. I think that is a great testament coming from that type of man.
Many today, both among the impoverished and the elite, profess to have had all forms of religious experience while they were under the influence of drugs. For the life of me I cannot understand how any sane man or woman could presume that to deaden their natural God-given senses would enable them to have a religious experience. The ecstasy of religious experience comes from a clean soul, and only as we clean up our lives and avoid the down-drags of drugs and other forms of deadening of the human intellect and soul are we going to be successful in what we undertake to do.

A CONVERSION TO THE TRUTH IN ENGLAND

I would like to call your attention to what ­happens to a man in this Church when he is converted to the truth. I hope you are all converts. I was in a meeting not long ago, and I asked how many were converts. Probably 50 percent raised their hands. I said, “I advise the rest of you to get converted.”
You need to be converts. I would like to say this in passing, that in the years that have passed—and they are many—I have continued to be a convert to The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, and for that I thank God. He has been good to me in that He has headed me off when I would have gone my own way. He has known better than I knew what was good for me, and He has been willing and gracious to make provision for the things that He could see and that I couldn’t that would happen to me unless He took a part, and He took it. For this I am extremely grateful.
I said I have had contact with Him. In 1904 I went to England on a mission. President Heber J. Grant sent me down to Norwich. When I got into Norwich, the president of the district sent me down to Cambridge.
He said, “I want you to go with Elder Downs. [He was a man forty-five years old, and I was twenty-one years old.] Elder Downs will leave the morning after you get there for France because his mission is completed. There is not another Latter-day Saint within 120 miles of Cambridge, so you will be alone.” He said, “You might be interested to know, Brother Brown, that the last Mormon elder that was in Cambridge was driven out by a mob at the point of a gun and was told that the next Mormon elder that stepped inside the city limits would be shot on sight. I thought you would be glad to know that.”
I wasn’t glad to know it, but I thought it was well that I did know it.
We went to Cambridge. There were great signs all over the city—they had heard we were coming. They had signs indicating their antipathy. That was their method of welcoming us. One big sign at the railway station was of a large man with a long beard and a woman lying at his feet with her head on a block. Underneath it said, “Will you go into polygamy or won’t you?” That was the reception we received.
Elder Downs left the next morning after telling me how to prepare my tracts, and I went out on Friday morning and tracted all morning without any response except a slammed door in my face. I tracted all afternoon with the same response, and I came home pretty well discouraged. But I decided to tract Saturday morning, although it wasn’t required. I went out and tracted all morning with the same results. I came home dejected and downhearted, and I thought I ought to go home. I thought the Lord had made a mistake in sending me to Cambridge.
I was sitting by that little alleged fire they have in England with a big granddaddy clock at the side of the so-called fire. I was feeling sorry for myself, and I heard a knock at the front door. The lady of the house answered the door.
I heard a voice say, “Is there an Elder Brown who lives here?”
I thought, “Oh, oh, here it is!”
She said, “Why, yes, he’s in the front room. Come in, please.”
A man came in and said, “Are you Elder Brown?”
I was not surprised that he was surprised. I said, “Yes, sir.”
He said, “Did you leave this tract at my door?”
Well, my name and address were on it. Though I was attempting at that time to get ready to practice law, I didn’t know how to answer him. I said, “Yes, sir, I did.”
He said, “Last Sunday there were seventeen of us heads of families who left the Church of England. We went to my home, where I have a rather large room. Each of us has a large family, and we filled the large room with men, women, and children. We decided that we would pray all through the week that the Lord would send us a new pastor. When I came home tonight, I was discouraged; I thought our prayer had not been answered. But when I found this tract under my door, I knew the Lord had answered our prayer. Will you come tomorrow night and be our new pastor?”
Now, I hadn’t been in the mission field three days. I didn’t know anything about missionary work, and he wanted me to be their pastor. But I was reckless enough to say, “Yes, I’ll come.” And I repented from then till the time of the meeting.
He left—and took my appetite with him! I called in the lady of the house and told her I didn’t want any tea. I went up to my room and prepared for bed. I knelt at my bed. My young brothers and sisters, for the first time in my life I talked with God. I told Him of my predicament. I pleaded for His help. I asked Him to guide me. I pleaded that He would take it off my hands. I got up and went to bed and couldn’t sleep, so I got out and prayed again. I kept that up all night—but I really talked with God.
The next morning I told the landlady I didn’t want any breakfast, and I went up on the campus in Cambridge and walked all morning. I came in at noon and told her I didn’t want any lunch. Then I walked all afternoon. I had a short-circuited mind—all that I could think of was that I had to go down there that night and be a pastor.
I came back to my room at six o’clock, and I sat there meditating, worrying, and wondering. (Let me tell you that since that time I have had the experience of sitting beside a man who was condemned to die the next morning. As I sat and watched his emotions, I was reminded of how I felt that night. I think I felt just as bad as he did. The execution time was drawing near.) Finally it came to the point where the clock said 6:45. I got up and put on my long Prince Albert coat and my stiff hat, which I had acquired in Norwich; took my walking cane, which we always ­carried in those days, and my kid gloves; put a Bible under my arm; and dragged myself down to that ­building—literally. I just made one track all the way.
Just as I got to the gate, the man came out—the man I had seen the night before. He bowed very politely and said, “Come in, Reverend, sir.”
I had never been called that before. I went in, and I saw that the room was filled with people, and they all stood up to honor their new pastor. That scared me to death.
Then I had come to the point where I began to think about what I had to do, and I realized I had to say something about singing. I suggested that we sing “O My Father.” I was met with a blank stare. We sang it—it was a terrible cowboy solo. Then I thought, “If I could get these people to turn around and kneel by their chairs, they wouldn’t be looking at me while I prayed.”
I asked them if they would, and they responded readily. They all knelt down, and I knelt down. And for the second time in my life, I talked with God. All fear left me. I didn’t worry anymore. I was turning it over to Him.
I said to Him, among other things, “Father in Heaven, these folks have left the Church of England. They have come here tonight to hear the truth. You know that I am not prepared to give them what they want, but Thou art, O God, the one who can. And if I can be an instrument through whom You speak, very well, but please take over.”
When we arose, most of them were weeping, as was I. Wisely I dispensed with the second hymn, and I started to talk. I talked for forty-five minutes. I don’t know what I said. I didn’t talk—God spoke through me, as subsequent events proved. And He spoke so powerfully to that group that at the close of that meeting they came and put their arms around me and held my hands.
They said, “This is what we have been waiting for. Thank God you came.”
I told you that I dragged myself down to that meeting. On my way back home that night, I only touched the ground once; I was so elated that God had taken off my hands an insuperable task for man.
Within three months every man, woman, and child in that audience was baptized a member of the Church. I didn’t baptize them because I was transferred. But they all joined the Church, and most of them came to Utah and Idaho. I have seen some of them in recent years. They are elderly people now, but they say they never have attended such a meeting, a meeting where God spoke to them.

A LEGEND FROM LONGFELLOW

I read the other day again from Henry Wadsworth Longfellow’s works in his poem called “Morituri Salutamus,” meaning, of course, “We who are about to die salute you.” That would seem to be quite appropriate tonight. We who are about to die salute you young folks. I don’t mean I am going to die tomorrow, but I think I will die within the next fifty years. In this poem Longfellow tells a legend. Most of you students perhaps have read it. I think you are not so familiar with Longfellow as we used to be, but I like the old fellow. He said this, and it is a description of what is happening in the world today:
In medieval Rome, I know not where,There stood an image with its arm in air,And on its lifted finger, shining clear,A golden ring with the device, “Strike here!”Greatly the people wondered, though none guessedThe meaning that these words but half expressed,Until a learned clerk, who at noondayWith downcast eyes was passing on his way,Paused, and observed the spot, and marked it well,Whereon the shadow of the finger fell;And, coming back at midnight, delved, and foundA secret stairway leading underground.Down this he passed into a spacious hall,Lit by a flaming jewel on the wall;And opposite, in threatening attitude,With bow and shaft a brazen statue stood.Upon its forehead, like a coronet,Were these mysterious words of menace set:“That which I am, I am; my fatal aimNone can escape, not even yon luminous flame!”
Midway the hall was a fair table placed,With cloth of gold, and golden cups enchasedWith rubies, and the plates and knives were gold,And gold the bread and viands manifold.Around it, silent, motionless, and sad,Were seated gallant knights in armor clad,And ladies beautiful with plume and zone,But they were stone, their hearts within were stone;And the vast hall was filled in every partWith silent crowds, stony in face and heart.Long at the scene, bewildered and amazedThe trembling clerk in speechless wonder gazed;Then from the table, by his greed made bold,He seized a goblet and a knife of gold,And suddenly from their seats the guests upsprang,The vaulted ceiling with loud clamors rang,The archer sped his arrow, at their call,Shattering the lambent jewel on the wall,And all was dark around and overhead;—Stark on the floor the luckless clerk lay dead!
The writer of this legend then recordsIts ghostly application in these words:The image is the Adversary old,Whose beckoning finger points to realms of gold;Our lusts and passions are the downward stairThat leads the soul from a diviner air;The archer, Death; the flaming jewel, Life;Terrestrial goods, the goblet and the knife;The knights and ladies, all whose flesh and boneBy avarice have been hardened into stone;The clerk, the scholar whom the love of pelfTempts from his books and from his nobler self.
The scholar and the world! The endless strife,The discord in the harmonies of life!The love of learning, the sequestered nooks,And all the sweet serenity of books;The market-place, the eager love of gain,Whose aim is vanity, and whose end is pain!
But why, you ask me, should this tale be toldTo men grown old, or who are growing old?It is too late! Ah, nothing is too lateTill the tired heart shall cease to palpitate.
“Cato learned Greek at eighty,” and Longfellow tells of several others who did their best work after they had reached more than fourscore years. He then adds:
These are indeed exceptions; but they showHow far the gulf-stream of our youth may flowInto the arctic regions of our lives,Where little else than life itself survives.[Henry Wadsworth Longfellow, “Morituri Salutamus” (1875)]
I think we need to learn a lesson from these ­solemn words: “the luckless clerk lay dead” because of greed.
I’ll read another poem:
Wealth is not the things we own,     A stately house upon a hill,Paintings, rugs and tapestries,     Or servants hired to do one’s will.In luxury a man may dwell     Lonely as in a prison cell.
Wealth is not a plenteous purse     Or bonds that one has stored away,A boastful balance in a bank     Or jewelled trinkets fools display;The things that really satisfy     Are things that money cannot buy.
Wealth is health, a cheerful heart,     An ear that hears a robin’s song,A mind content, some treasured friends     And fragrant memories lingering long.Living is an inward art,     All lasting wealth is in the heart![Alfred Grant Walton, “Wealth,” in Lyrics for Living (Francestown, New Hampshire: Golden Quill Press, 1963), 45]

A SPECIAL WITNESS

One of the things that President McKay says to all the men who are called to the Council of the Twelve is this: “You are to become a witness of Jesus the Christ, a special witness. Wherever you go you are to bear that witness and bless the people.”
My young friends, with all the solemnity of my soul, speaking from the very center of my heart, I say to you, knowing that I am on the very brink of eternity, that Jesus of Nazareth is the Son of God, the Redeemer of the world. He is pleading tonight for you, His younger brothers and sisters. He is the Son of the living God. He has come again in our time, and He will come again and rule and reign on this earth for a thousand years of universal peace known as the Millennium. That time is coming, and—by reason of the determination to avoid the down-drag of life—they who are worthy will be caught up to meet Him when He comes.
I plead with you that you will watch every act and every word and every thought. Remember, you are the captain of your own soul. You cannot blame others who may tempt you. It is up to you. Young ladies, behave yourselves as ladies, and young men, treat them as ladies. Do not degrade one another by immoral and unrighteous actions.
Heavenly Father, wilt thou bless this wonderful audience of young people. Let Thy Spirit be with each of them that they may know of Thy ­presence and be lifted up thereby, that they may keep themselves clean and pure in Thy sight, so that when the Savior shall come again, they may be ­numbered among those who are worthy to meet Him at His coming. I pray for this blessing upon you and leave you this testimony and my own special blessing humbly, in the name of Jesus Christ, amen. "

It always amazes me how a talk given over 50 years ago is still relevant today. 
Con amor,
Vero

Saturday, January 6, 2018

How to get motivated

My post today is about getting motivated to do my diet since I am starting today I need to write about how it all started. For years each time we go see our doctor, he have been telling us to lose weight but we have not been consistent. In December Daniel went back to get an ultrasound to check on his liver and the results came to be a fatty liver. It was confirmed that he needs to lose at least 10 to 20 pounds if not more. Daniel and I both need to lose the weight to be healthy and this time is not an option. We thought we would go on a diet as soon as all the birthday celebrations are out of the way.

I was putting a plan together surfing the internet when I cam across a Facebook post from a dear friend: Kent Rappleye and this is what he wrote:

"Happy New Year Everyone! My first post of 2018 is a long one. There have been some who have called or otherwise communicated with me out of concern with pictures they have seen recently and wonder if I have cancer or some other illness. Thank you for your concern. I did have cancer in 2015 (melanoma) but surgery was successful, and so far, all is well. The weight loss in 2017 is a different story. It is the story of my journey over the past 230 days of recovery from sugar addiction. That's right, sugar ADDICTION. I am a sugar addict. 

For decades I have joked about being a chocoholic and sugar addict. However, in August 2016, I hit my all-time high weight of 255 pounds. For my height (5’9”) that has a Body Mass Index (BMI) number of 37.6 which is considered Obesity Level 2, just a few points shy of being morbidly obese! I had high blood pressure, my joints ached, I was recovering from skin cancer, I couldn't hardly bend over to tie my shoes, and a host of other problems. So, Nancy and I tried a cleansing diet we had done three times before and I lost 30 pounds in a few months, only to regain twenty of it back by the end of the year. One year ago today, 1 January 2017, Nancy and I went on a Paleo diet and I lost 20 pounds, but I soon gained it all back. I felt like I was in a no-win situation. I had been trying to lose weight and keep it off for a couple of decades and could lose, but then promptly gained it all back. I was all but resigned to accept my fate of being obese. 

Fast forward to April 2017. One night I had a phone conversation with one of my dear friends and former seminary students (Leon Stevens) from over 30 years ago. He told me of a program his wife Becki had found called Bright Line Eating. It was developed by a cognitive brain scientist out of Rochester University in upstate New York. Leon is a rocket scientist (literally) and when his wife kept talking about the science involved in her program, he decided he should take a look at the science behind it. He told me the science checked out, and so, on his recommendation, I bought the book, Bright Line Eating, which had just been published in March 2017, and began to read.

Nancy and I had a trip to Europe with our youngest son Jacob the first part of May, and I read the book and told Nancy that I thought it was something I should do when we returned home. Nancy was very supportive and said that if we were going to do it, we would start on the way home. I just didn't realize that Nancy took it literally, and we actually started 17 May 2017 when we flew from Utah back home to New York. From that day to this, I am 230 days clean. I have lost over 90 pounds in that time period. I am at my high school weight and am learning to adjust to the new me. 

Let me just pause here and say that I owe all my success in what I have accomplished to my wife Nancy. She is NOT addicted to sugar. She can take it or leave it. She chose to eat this way with me to support me. She continued eating this way even when she was visiting her parents in Seattle and didn't have to follow this program. Of course, she has also benefited by losing 45 pounds so far but an even greater benefit for her has been that she has not had one drop of acid reflux since starting this program, which she has suffered with since she got pregnant with our first son Joseph, who was born in 1981 - 36 years ago. There is no way I could have made it without Nancy. She literally has given me my life back! I love you, Nancy! Thank you!

People often ask if I will eat like this for the rest of my life, and I answer that an addict cannot think that far into the future. An addict can only look at one day at a time. My mantra is, “My food is enough, and for today, this is what I am going to eat.” It is a day by day experience.

Here is what is involved in Bright Line Eating. A Bright Line is a line that you don’t cross, no matter what. There are four of them. They are:

1. No sugar. Period. Of any kind. Not only is there no sugar, but no sweetener of any kind, natural OR artificial. That means no honey, agave, maple syrup, aspartame, saccharine, truvia, stevia, etc. (There is one exception: if the sugar or sweetener is NOT in the first three ingredients, it may be okay. You must determine whether or not it is triggering for you.)

2. No flour. Period. Of any kind. This doesn’t apply just to wheat flour. No rice flour, sweet potato flour, cornstarch, corn flour, coconut flour, etc. (The same exception applies to flour, that it may be okay for you to eat as long as it is NOT listed in the first three ingredients.)
3. Three meals a day. Period. NO SNACKING. No BLTs either, meaning no Bites, no Licks, no Tastes. Meals should be eaten four to six hours apart.

4. Measured quantities. You measure everything. When it says 6 ounces of vegetables, it means 6.0 ounces. Not 6.1 or some other decimal. This is to help your integrity with yourself. If you say, “oh, 6.1 is close enough,” then tomorrow 6.2 will be close enough, then 6.7, etc. until you no longer keep the quantities in line, and you "fall off the wagon."

I am so grateful to have made it this far. Thank you Nancy for making it possible to complete. Thank you Leon and Becki for telling me about this program and helping me to get started. Thank you to all of you who have been concerned and those who have been supportive. 

I know a lot of people start the New Year wanting to lose weight. This is NOT a diet and weight loss program. It is a program to rewire your brain to control addiction to sugar. It will NOT work unless you are ready to make a change. It is NOT about will power. It is about changing the way you think about food. I am happy to help anyone who is interested. Just let me know.

If you are interested in more information, you can find it at brightlineeating.com. For fun, you ought to go to the website and take the susceptibility test and see how addicted to sugar you are. For comparison's sake, I am a 9+ almost a 10 and Nancy is a 5."

Sounds familiar. this is us and this is exactly what we need. I am buying the book and will tell my sisters about it too. This came right when we needed it and for this I am so thankful!

Con amor,
Vero

Friday, January 5, 2018

New Year Resolutions

We got out of Manila last night to be at Subic Bay. Woke up to a nice breakfast by the ocean and what was my surprise that the office had bought a cake for me and we were able to celebrate it with a cake. Last night at a restaurant I told Daniel to tell the waitress that it was my birthday so they could bring us a piece of cake and sing happy birthday but because it was a day after my birthday on January 4th he didn't want to but today there was my birthday cake. Yay! This will be my last day eating sweets until I lose all the weight. My diet starts tomorrow.

These are a few more New Year Resolutions ideas.
Drink more water.
Move more, sit less, start daily walks, bike rides or running.
Travel to the next door town, camping trips, national parks.
Volunteer more time improving the community.
Send more handwritten letters.
Call mom, siblings, grandparents more often.
Wake up earlier.
Only buy what you need.
Turn music instead of TV
Try doing something new.
Go to bed early.
Take time to self care.
Clean out your email box
Take a full day off from social media at least once a week.
Clean out your closet.
Go to local live music concerts.
Try a fitness class: yoga, zumba, water aerobics, spinning, pilates, belly dancing etc.
Learn a new language on a free app like Duolingo.
Keep notepad next to your bed for ideas that come to you.
Keep a jar of things you are grateful for during the year.
Always use sunscreen.
Organize your photos, delete duplicates, and put them in folders for events, years, months etc,
starat a recipe box or journal
send thank you cards
lower your sugar intake.

The new me starts tomorrow!

Con amor,
Vero


Wednesday, January 3, 2018

Small ways to improve your life

It's my birthday and for a quick celebration we went to eat at our favorite restaurant. "Nostalgia" and tomorrow we are going out of town to Subic Bay. The HR people will be there too.  Daniel is the main speaker and has been preparing his presentation for days. Today as I am a year older and hopefully wiser. I want to share things I will do to reduce stress:

Each morning have some fresh fruit and breakfast feeling full.
Eat less at lunch and even less at dinner.
Get some exercise. Yoga to soothe, running to breath, lifting for strength.
Take a nice shower and pamper as much as you want afterward.
Take time each day to write, read, and practice an instrument or a skill like knitting.

Tomorrow I will be going out of town so I will not be writing in my blog.

Con amor,
Vero


Tuesday, January 2, 2018

Trust how good you are

Here is a post from a woman with so much wisdom that I am sharing: 

“When I started my very first company I was only 23 years old.  I still felt like a little kid at the time.  I remember thinking that everyone was so much older than me and therefore they must be more knowledgeable than me.  I remember thinking that people who had a higher level of education than I did must be so much smarter than I was.  I remember looking at those people with big fancy jobs and titles thinking that they must be so much more capable than I was.  I remember how I used to constantly second guess my own instincts because I would default to the opinions of people that I figured must be better than I was. 

 Looking back I have to say that if I could tell young people something it would be this – DO NOT ever assume that age, or education, or title, position makes someone better or smarter or more capable than you are, and for heaven’s sake, trust in just how good you actually are!The reality is that there are very educated people who are just not that bright.  There are older people who are not that wise.  There are people with big fancy titles who are not that capable.  So you can’t ever judge the abilities of a person by their age, their education, or their position.  You have to judge them by their results and their integrity.  And for heaven’s sake, don’t ever hold yourself back or second guess how good you actually are because you are measuring yourself against someone that you assume should be better than you.  

Don’t discount yourself like that!  I can tell you that most of the employees I have worked with rate themselves far below how good and how capable they actually are.  So often they second guess their abilities and I just want to shake them and say “Don’t you know how truly amazing you are?”Yet, I get where they are coming from because I remember a time when I used to think that way as well.  And then one day things started to change.  I remember sitting in meetings with what the world would have thought of as “big wigs” in my early days, listening to what was going on in the room and having it suddenly hit me – “oh, my gosh, I know more about this than they do” and feeling absolutely stunned by that because here I thought I was the junior person in the room.  

The more I had those ah-hah moments in my career, the more I started to learn that I needed to stop assuming everyone was so much smarter or better than me, and with time and experience I came to realize that I needed to trust my abilities far more than I was giving myself credit for.  Once I was able to do that I was able to move much more quickly ahead in furthering my skills and talents in the business world.  The lesson I am trying to share here is to HAVE CONFIDENCE IN YOURSELF because you really are better than you know.Now for clarity sake let me be very clear that there is a huge difference in having confidence and being arrogant.  

Confidence is recognizing your own abilities and feeling good about them.  Arrogance is when you start to think that those abilities somehow make you a more valuable human being than any other human being, which will never be right because to God we all matter exactly the same, never one above another, regardless of any abilities we have or don’t have.  So confidence in yourself is a good thing. Just don’t ever let it cross over into becoming arrogant, because that is a very, very bad thing and you never want to get that way.Now back to how amazing you are.  Remember this:  You are better than you realize!  Trust in that.  My favorite quote in the world is one I remind myself of daily:

“Don’t limit yourself to the picture in your mind, because God might intend your picture to be a masterpiece.”  -Amy Rees Anderson

What an incredible way to have confidence. Good for you Amy Anderson, you are an inspiration to so many. 

Con amor,
Vero 

Monday, January 1, 2018

Time for a new Vision Board

The new year for me is more than just a change in calendar. It’s also the beginning of a new year in my life since it’s also my birthday on January 3rd so for me, it’s the perfect time to change something I need to start doing better. It’s the perfect time to take a good hard look at the things I want to change and recognize what actions I need to take to do that.  

This year I have decided to make a new vision board. I like to make one from time to time as a reminder of the things I need to focus on. This is the week to get out that cardboard sheet and a glue stick and find some pictures to represent everything you ever wanted! I hope you try doing this too. It works! It’s like a New Year resolution but with a specific, attainable and measurable goal in mind. I got this idea from Cristi who wrote an article about it on her weeds to wishes blog on January 10,th 2014. I even reposted the article on my Facebook page for all of you to read it because it has worked for me every time!

Example:  one of the things I had placed on previous vision boards was traveling extensively to amazing places like Japan, Uruguay, El Salvador and Australia which has all come to pass. Another picture on my vision board was buying and selling properties to expand my rental business which has also come to pass. This past year, I sold my old  home to purchase a two bedroom apartment in City Creek. Another picture on my vision board was completing writing a chapter on a book which came out this past April. Get the picture? Try it, I am sure that whatever you place on that vision board will eventually happen because you get so focused on getting it done!

One suggestion I have as you prepare to make your vision board is to sit down and make a list of each of your talents you see in yourself. Every one of us came into this world having our own unique talents. Some are obvious talents such as music, dance, voice, writing, painting, etc. while others have less visual talents so whether your talents are obvious or not, the talents you have can become very powerful in your life if you recognize them, develop them and appreciate them.

Think hard about it. Make sure you remember to list every one of your talents and don’t be shy about it. Even the ones that are not as obvious or visual. Keep those talents in mind as you set your goals for the new year and make sure you are not ignoring those things that will naturally make you a huge success in your life. And remember that a loving Heavenly Father gave you those talents but what you do with them is all up to you. It is our job to make the most of them.

My quote for the new year I will place on my Vision board reads: “I want to remember that no one is going to make my dreams come true for me… it is my job to get up every day and work toward things that are deepest in my heart… and to enjoy every step of the journey rather than wishing I was already where I want to end up.” Anonymous

Happy New Year Everyone!

Con amor,

Vero