Being alone

Yesterday was a day that I didn't get one chance to sit at the computer to post anything and I know there will be days like that. It was an ordinary day other than I went to the temple next door and what a blessing it is to have it next door. I thought about some questions I had in my mind and came home feeling good. Daniel was working as always till midnight and I never got to write anything for the day I guess some days are like that. Nothing to report.


Today is another story! It is a day that Daniel is out of town and when that happens I feel a little lonely. I realize more and more how I love having him by me. I understand that we can't always be with people and that there could possible be a time depending on who dies first that one of us will stay alone. I think of this more as I get older. Today is abuela Nela's birthday, Daniel's mom. I was able to call to talk to her which was great. Gabriel had send her phone number to call and posted the calling card too. A calling card for the kids to call long distance if they need to. Daniel pays for it but there are many other ways of calling that are free, that is for times when calling free would not work.


As I talked to her and wished her a happy birthday I thought about how hard it must be for her to have her husband gone. They were together for so many wonderful years. He died loving her and that is the best example a father can give a child. Daniel is so lucky to have had him as a wonderful example. Not the example kids now days are getting from so many marriages ending in divorce including my own kids and Daniel's kids.


Today also is when my little sister's divorce was finalized. She is now a free woman. I know how hard this must be for her. I know all the insecurities and pain she must be feeling to be alone raising her son and I know is going to get some getting used to but in the end like CS Lewis said: there are far better things ahead than anything we leave behind. Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars, you have to let go at some point in order to move forward. There is a poem I want to post as well:

One Clear Voice

The whole world is talking
Drowning out my voice
How can I hear myself
With all this noise
But all this confusion
Just disappears
When I find a quiet place
Where I can hear

One clear voice
Calling out for me to listen
One clear voice
Whispers words of wisdom
I close my eyes
’till I find what I’ve been missing
If I’m very still, I will hear
One clear voice

I’m always searching
For which path to take
Sometimes I’m so afraid
To make mistakes
From somewhere inside me
Stronger than my fears
Just like the sound of music
To my ears, I hear

One clear voice
Calling out for me to listen
One clear voice
Whispers words of wisdom
I close my eyes
’till I find what I’ve been missing
If I’m very still, I will hear
One clear voice

I hope at times when we are alone we take advantage to  hear that clear voice!